How Moody and Magical began...

The name Moody and Magical was created several years ago, originally, when I thought I wanted to paint the entireity of the interior of my home all black. I was craving some "depth" in my life. Some meaning, some way to evoke emotion. So the first step in this decision process, naturally, was to create an instagram handle for it- because if I was going to embark on this process, I had to document it publicly, right?! Well, I did not in fact pursue painting everything black. Instead I inadvertently went on a self exploration journey. I realized when I couldnt make the decision to pull the trigger on even painting ONE wall that I was having a hard time making any decisions in my life. Shortly after the covid shutdown and I was only able to work part time so I had lots of free time on my hands. I thought "I have the most free time to myself that I've had since I started working at the age of 14/15 and I have no idea what I want to do with my time or myself". I started exploring some new hobbies with one of my closest friends, my older brother. I realized through the hobbies that there was new found enjoyment in life and confidence in myself. I began telling myself " I have no set plans for anything in my life other than I'm just going to follow whatever lights me up". If doing the dishes didn't light me up, I wasnt doing them-because you know they are always still there waiting for you when you get back anyways. If I was reading and decided on a whim that I wanted to go for a walk at the park then that's what I did. A friend asked me to lunch, I'd pause for a minute and really feel to find my answer-is that what I want to do right now? This process really starting working in my favor. It wasn't that I just felt happy all the time, but I was FEELING again. Feeling alive, the ups and the downs, and my mental health was really seeing a major improvement. Even my psychiatrist at the time asked what I was doing differently because she could really see a change in me. I told her I was just following my inner guidance of what really lit me up, probably for the first time in my life. So fast forward a year or so with some major life changes along the way and finding myself starting fresh on my own, living by myself in a new place, meanwhile the Instagram handle still sat unused. I decided I would start using Moody and Magical as a fresh Instagram page for this new phase in my life. I had the epiphany that life can be Moody but it can also be Magical, both can be true at the same time. Once again I was experiencing so many variying emotions in this transition of my life. Lots of struggles and grief but also lots of fullfillment and just joy. I was experiencing the moodiness of life and also the magic of life. I started with just sharing some personal posts on @Moodyandmagical. After a few months I started to feel some creativity returning or should I say the craving for creativity. Years ago in another lifetime I had created jewelry before but had put it away as I was beginning a new job at the time and didn't have the time or mental space for it. As I was feeling the craving for creativity return I decided to revisit my jewlery making. I was starting back over from scratch, learning how to create the actual designs, finding suppliers again, and figuring out how and where to sell it. It has been a process getting back to it after so much time away from it but I am learning even more than I knew before. I now try to be very intentional in my creations, whether that be creating the way I want my life to look and feel and also in the creations of the designs for Moody and Magical. I feel I have found the connection and the depth and the creativity I was once craving. It was within all along! And that is how Moody and Magical began.